For the past few years, I have been searching for someone.
She’s about 5’6”, blonde hair, hazel eyes. She pops in and out of my life,
showing herself every once in a while but always just out of reach. I know she's here somewhere, she just needs some encouragement to come out and show herself. Who am I
looking for? Myself. Have you seen me?
Oh, not the woman who’s been around for the past 23+ years –
mom, wife, chauffeur, PTO member, Church volunteer, homework helper, shoulder
to cry on. No, she’s great but she’s not who I’m searching for.
I’m looking for that other woman. The one who loves to read
and write; whose friends swore she’d be an anchor on the local news station;
who couldn’t imagine getting old. The one who is turning 48 in a few days but
swears she was just 25 a few months ago.
Truthfully, I’m not sure I even know her. She’s been buried
under some wonderful titles (see above) but I think it’s about time I find out
more about her.
I’ve had an incredible life so far doing exactly what I
always thought I’d do – be a mom to some pretty great kids. And now, those
great kids are grown up and I’m finding myself in a bit of a dilemma. I’ve got
to find myself again. I’ve got to figure out who Kathleen Marie Welsh Kopp will
be for the next stage of her life.
I’ve been so busy being a mom and wife, and reacting to life, I’ve
let life determine who I am rather than the other way around.
Well no more! I declare it’s my turn. I’ve already started
my journey and I invite you to join me. Who are you looking for? That girl who
always wanted to be a worldwide traveler? That woman who thought she’d be a
great actress? That young lady who always wanted to write a book? That young man
who thought he could be his own boss? That boy who thought he’d be a
professional athlete?
Well guess what? It’s your turn too. Let’s do this together.
Let’s look at each area of our lives and discover who we want to be from now
on.
Over the next month, I’m going to examine and explore every
area of my life – from the food I eat to the people I socialize with to the
clothes I wear. I’m going to look at my past so I can figure out my future.
Who’s with me?
